Full-Blown Pain: My Battle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with severe discomfort behind one eye that persists for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, severe pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to organize life around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing records suggest unusual treatments for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Robert Richards
Robert Richards

A Toronto-based tech journalist and business analyst with over a decade of experience covering North American markets.